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i have never talked about him though he has been in my life for quite some time now… i guess i was never ready to answer questions about him… about us. today, i just felt the need to show his picture to my friends to announce that he is the one who makes me look forward to tomorrow and to forever.

baby, I know that we have been through so many things and in a short span of time, I know for sure that what we have is something more permanent than what others think we might have. I know i don’t owe anyone any explanations because what we feel is something even you and I cannot fathom. I can’t wait to be with you again and I appreciate your decision to leave everything behind to be with me. I promise you my whole life and I will show you everyday that I am worth giving up your dreams for. I will in my own way give you your dream of having a happy family, your dream destinations and a life you would not regret having. You are God’s gift to me and I will never do anything in my power to turn you away. I love how your family accepts and loves me and I can’t wait to wear the same surname you have.

I love you dennis. hug you tight baby ko…

i have never had a valentine date, flowers, jewelry (my!), getaway or anything valentine that has made it to my "precious moments" list. i know my exs (s?) would probably get mad at me for saying that but what the hell, that is the truth. so what i have always been doing my whole life is making other people’s valentines beautiful because mine never seens to be one. do i sound bitter? maybe… sometimes i hate it that i am so romantic and that maybe i should have just been a guy and made my girlfriend the luckiest girl in town… or i might not be like this though if i were a guy… (oops@!)

what exactly am i trying to say? i finally got my valentines gift this year that made it to my list. you know who made it special for me? the ONLY one who always wipes my tears and spoils me to death… my Lord Jesus Christ. He loves me so much i couldn’t even begin to attest all of the wonderful things He has given me my whole life. but this day, He gave me one of the things i have been praying for quite some time now. It has been a while since i felt happy and excited about something.

This blog is for you my Lord for giving me "flowers" this valentines. I love you and thank you so much.