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A movie about a once-in-a-lifetime second chance for love. Stars Jennifer Love Hewitt and Paul Nicholls… highly recommended for hopeless romantics and for those who believe in love… I have to decide if it moved "The Bridges of Madison County" and "The Notebook" to slots number 2 and 3… I LOVED IT. Absolutely heart breaking… made me cry through out the entire movie… ENTIRE movie. A masterpiece. Kudos to writer Christina Welsh…

Must see for romantics like me… ok i have to wipe my nose now…

People who know me best know that there is one destination that I will not die not going to… Amanpulo.  And i just want everyone to know how my heart swells with pride when I changed upon an article and it was included as "BEST VACATION SPOT TO GET LOST…."

Here is the link to the article:

http://travel.discovery.com/fansites/worldsbest/getlost/getlost.html

Haaaaaaaaay!  What can I say??? I have always wanted it as honeymoon destination… but if that doesn’t happen in that setting… well, there are anniversaries right?! All I know is that I will go to this place no matter what…

1:17 am… new york city…

the Lord really works in mysterious ways… i was expecting a call pero ibang tao ang tumawag…

sobrang sweet… wala akong masabi… i just didn’t think that this day could even go better… but it did…   

i know alam mo kung sino ka… ganyan lang po ha… ganyan lang po…

maybe i am getting the answers to my questions na… bahala ka na Lord… my life is yours… Your will be done… kahit ano Lord… kahit ano na po…

i am sitting on a reserved coach on an Amtrak train on the way to

New York City

… with a big smile on my face…

the Lord really loves me… he always gives me the chance to go to places that I dream about. Lagi na lang, pag meron akong pinagnanasahan na destinasyon, malamang sa hindi mapupuntahan ko yan. Most of the time dahil meron akong client na pupuntahan malapit sa location na yun…

a few weeks ago, I was seriously contemplating going to New York for my birthday… muntik na nga akong bumili ng ticket eh… tapos last week I got a call na I will be assigned to go to Delaware… ciempre research ako agad kung san yun at anong magandang tourist spot doon… eh mukhang wala! So I looked at the neighboring states and I saw “TING!”

New York

! Naisip ko, gaano kaya kalapit yun either by train or by driving? Pero naisip ko, imposible kasi Monday morning pa kami aalis ng Delaware so basically, I might just have the weekend tapos balik ulit… prang hindi worth the trip… hindi ko maiikot lahat… so I scratched that off my mind na…  Packed my bags, went to

Delaware

(this deserves another blog though… sobra!!!)… tapos my friend told me na gusto na nya kaming matapos by Friday… so that made my weekend free!!! Then I started to think… hmmm… punta na nga kaya ako ng

New York

?!?!?!! So I called my friend Kathleen, asked her if she will have the time to show me around the city ng weekend… its so funny kasi last week she just invited me to meet her in Las Vegas kasi nasa Phoenix cya… so I said cge tignan ko kung pwede, tapos nga I got the Delaware engagement so sabi ko sa kanya I can’t meet her in Vegas… tapos sa New York pala kami kasi magkikita…. AMAZING! Sobrang nakakatuwa talaga…

Tapos I called a friend who I haven’t seen FOREVER, she was a close high school friend… her family migrated to the states and I think the last time I saw her was in college… so we haven’t seen each other in 8 years! She was so shocked and said how did u get my number?? Sabi ko binigay mo na sa friendster message dati pa wala lang akong kwenta at hindi kita tinatawagan! Sabi nya… oo nga walang hiya ka!!! So magdidinner kami just in time when Kat goes back to

Phoenix

  at wala na kong kasama…

Then I have this good friend of mine whom I met last year sa

Chicago

training ng GT, her name is Lisa and she has always invited me to go to

New York

para pwede kaming magchikahan about lovelife (hehe) and maglakwatsa together! So I called her and she said pwede cya ng Monday… so cya ang makakasama ko ng Monday naman…

Monday night, I will have the chance to meet my old friends na taga GT New York naman, si Ching-ching at si Boggart… panalo tlaga!!! We might watch a play, pero hindi pa kami sure… Tuesday morning I will have breakfast with Lala (si Sedic nasa

Newport Beach

! Kainis! Fyi, that is 10 mins away from where I live in

Irvine

! So wrong timing naman…) to catch up and just meet… she will be in

Santa Monica

daw first week of October so magkita na lang daw kami ulit doon… hindi kasi cya pwedeng mag-leave ng Tuesday… hahhaa…

Tuesday 3 pm I will be on a plane for

Irvine

… hahhaa… I guess by that time I am ready to go home kasi sobrang miss ko na si Pepperchini eh!!!  Alam nyo bang I call home every time pra marinig ko lang si Pepper? Sabi ni mommy… jeez!!! You want to talk to her more than you want to talk to me! Haha…  I miss my baby!!!

When I got the engagement I asked mommy terry… “mom, why do u think God planned for me to be on this trip to

Delaware

?” She said, maybe you’ll meet the one for you there… I said… yah right… then we both laughed at that never ending dream to find the ONE for us (she is divorced)…  Now I know why God planned for me to be there… to find one of the best clients I ever had in the states, to be able to drive the first time that is not on California roads… and be on a train to New York smiling like a kid that was handed a chocolate bar… anxious to see Kathleen waiting for me at the Penn Station…

New York

, here I come!

The BEST confrontation scene for me ever…

Noah:  "Will you just stay with me?

Ali:   "Stay with you, what for?! We are back to fighting again…"

Noah: "Well, that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant sonofabitch and I will tell you when you are being a pain in the ass… which you are 99% of the time… So its not going to be easy, its going to be really hard… and we are going to work at this everyday… but i want to do that because i want you… I WANT ALL OF YOU, FOREVER… YOU AND ME… EVERYDAY…"

breaks my freakin heart every time…

my i LOVE this movie….

minsan merong mga tao o bagay na binibigay syo ng sandali lang… sa ayaw at sa gusto mo mawawala rin sya agad sa buhay mo… tapos pag nananahimik ka na naman, meron na namang ibibigay syo… naku… minsan hindi ko na alam kung dapat akong matuwa pag merong bagong dumadating… kasi mahirap mag-invest ng emosyon tapos mawawala rin naman… siguro tumatawa ang sinasabi kong bagong dumating kung alam nyang siya ang tinutukoy ko dito… hahaha… kawawa ka naman kasi inuunahan na kita… sorry ha, kasi merong nang mga nauunang magsabi saken kaya parang alam ko na??? hehhee… kaya lang a month ago ganito din ang nangyari pero tignan mo kung saan napunta yun… ciempre sa wala na naman… kaya ikaw, mag-isip ka munang mabuti ha… hahaa.. kawawa ka naman tlga…

pero cge, atleast pupunta ka dito soon… hmmm…

hehee.. alam mo kaya kung sino ka?

wala lang… napapangiti lang ako nitong mga huling araw na to… :)  minsan, if you are taken for granted by someone, its not that bad i guess… kasi ibig sabihin hindi worthy yung taong yun, hindi committed at hindi seryoso… and you are better off… and then someone else comes along and wins your heart… heto na naman kami… hahhaha…   

sabi nga ni kaye… CHENELYN!!!!

it was the perfect night for star gazing… nothing beats the feeling of looking at a million stars and trying to get answers to questions in your mind… this time, i talked with one of the stars and this was how it went…

"star: so have you found him yet?"
"me:  i think i have… a few weeks ago…"

"star: really?! great! i finally got to answer your wish then!!!"

"me:  (frowning) i don’t think you did your job pretty well little star… he is million miles away from me though, i can’t even say we are wishing on the same star because its day time from where he is right now…"

"star: so what do you want from me now?"

"me:  can you shine brighter and show the way for him to come here?"

"star:  princess… this is the brightest that i can ever be…"

"me: but can you ask any other stars to shine brighter and guide him to me then?"

"star: ok let me talk to the other stars tonight and i will tell you what they said…"

"me: ok, ok, that’s good enough for me…"

the following night i was so excited to talk to the star again…

"me: so what did they tell you??? (beaming…) was somebody good enough to help me with my plea?"

"star: my princess, i have talked with one of the stars..i guess she talked with THE one you were talking about…"

"me: really??? what did he say? did he asked for directions? did you help him??"

"star:  yes he did ask for directions… and he said he would to travel as soon as possible…"

"me: really??!! o i can hardly wait!!! thank you my little ones…"

and then off i go…

after i left the stars were talking…

"star 1:  my poor baby… i told her that the guy you talked to the other night asked for directions…"

"star 2: OMG, did you tell her?"

"star 1: no i never had the heart to say it… she was so happy… i just couldn’t tell her that the same guy was asking for directions… but it was never meant to be where she was…"

since high school i only had two persons who i have entrusted to cut and style my hair… fe and linda from oriental hair salon. that means 16 years of trust and loyalty… i felt like i cheated today for i had my first haircut here in the US. i just want to make it clear to my hair, I DON’T HAVE A CHOICE! i would have loved to go home just to have my hair cut and have a hot oil treatment { ciemps!!! and a massage to go with it, haller) pero mas mahal yata ang pamasahe ko keysa umuwi… hahaha.. pero sa totoo lang, if i do it as often as i have my hair cared for back home, i would have to do just that kasi ganun din… or mas mahal pa… (yep its that expensive… don’t even ask me how much…)  cut nga lang ang pinagawa ko pero sumasakit na yung dibdib ko eh… hahaha…

but i am so thankful kasi i think i got a new one to trust now… her name if Dina and she is mommy terry’s hair stylist for 7 years… that’s why i took the risk of trying her… gusto ko na kasi talagang magpagupit at ang haba na talaga ng buhok ko… at least ito kilala ni mommy na maarte rin sa buhok nya, mahal nga lang than the other ones that i know pero naman… i would NEVER have the heart to go inside a salon and just let anybody cut my hair… not worth the fear i would have to go through while she is cutting my hair nor the feeling of wanting to cry with disgust when you look at it after and realize, WTF!@#… … oh no no no… never.

linda! you are still my first choice and the number one in my heart… i will see you next time i go home… whenever that maybe…

so i guess this is another first… and this has been the longest my hair has ever been, and the longest time it has ever been left untouched… nine months and a day…

EZ L is done!!! wow… this deserves a toast and a long long sleeeeeeep…

hanggang monday siguro… hahaha! i am so looking forward to my bed right now and just want to make a blog out of this special moment of my life. kaye, tapos na rin!!!!!!! sa wakas…

well, this is labor day weekend… so i will celebrate the hard labor i just did this week and will do that in bed… so ang problema ko na lang sinong kasama ko sa bed… hhhhmmm…

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH…

actually, i am 7 minutes late for saying this line… its now 12:07 am and i have a few hours left before sunrise…

after 164 days… 5.5 months… my audit of my favorite client ever is about to finish!!! OMG, akala ko hindi na dadating tong panahon na to eh… grabe… sobrang inasam… hinangad… mamayang sandali lang nandyan na…

sa totoo lang, ano bang nilo-look forward ko dito? ayaw ko na makita ang mga pagsusungit saken ni Donna, ang mga walang kwentang chenelyn nya, mga schedules na hindi tumatama kahit saan…

pero ma-mi-miss ko… madami actually… ang pinaka-guwapo kong naging manager… hahaa… (well, guwapo rin ciempre si Sir Gani at si Wei) kahit wala na tong ginawa kundi buwisitin at asarin ako… ma-mi-miss ko cya. sabi nga nya, he does this out of love… charing! :)  haaaay…. hehhee! pero alam ko lab ako talaga nun… kasi pag naka-simangot na ko and alam nyang buwisit na ko, naglalambing at bumabait na… sayang at mag-aasawa na to… hahaha! asa pa eh noh… pero in-fairness, minsan tinawag nya ko ng pangalan ng fiancee nya… hmmm… ka-level ito, sorry.

atska grabe, one year na ko dito sa states nung august 27! ang bilis! as in… super lungkot ko pa nun last year at super homesick… pero kahit super bilis nitong panahon na to, super daming nangyari sa buhay ko at super dami kong natutunan. next blog… gagawa ako ng list ng mga highlights ko dito… basta, my life in the states for the first year…

oh, mag-ta-trabaho muna ko, baka masira pa ang bukas kong hinihintay eh…