i miss you too pop…
if you can hear me from whereever you may be…
if i can just see your funny face one last time…
if i can just hear you say you love me again…
and feel your hug for just a moment,
then maybe ill be ok…
i had a very bad head ache yesterday… i guess i can attribute that to this engagement that i have right now… i guess GT is actually making me pay for all the times i had to sit at the office and stare at my computer… that or actually just putting letters in envelopes… 3 months yun ha… hehehe! Hindi naman masyadong ganun ka-sarap pakinggan, marami naman akong binabasa… friendster, yahoo, mapquest, OCTA!!! hahaha…
i can’t sleep… bakit kaya? siguro kasi may naiisip na naman ako… i just watched a very nice movie, the title was Lucky 7, this is SOOOO cute. I recommend you watch this movie. balik ko na to sa Blockbuster para makahiram namang iba…
ito na yata ang pinaka-walang kwenta kong blog… haha… there’s so much i want to say but can’t (kasi secret eh…) and won’t dahil mauubos oras ko kakasulat kung sakali… i just wish i was on a plane to Manila, see my ate and my mama, call PAL to get a flight to Boracay or Seair for El Nido, BE ON THAT PLANE, and just be in my favorite place in the world. i miss my beaches… how life can be so ironic, nung nasa manila ako, wala akong pambayad ng plane palagi, ngayon naman, mas wala akong pambayad pang plane ng LAX-Manila-LAX… yun pang Manila-Kalibo lang meron… hahaha! Lintik… i cant wait for Hawaii… 37 days to go na lang… I just hope that the beach would be at par or even close to the beaches i’ve been to sa pilipinas… sana yumaman na ko ng husto so i can buy my own island in el nido… a dream that is still very much alive in my heart… o kahit na beach property na lang somewhere in visayas or palawan… with a mediterranean style house, glass windows with a perfect view of the beach, pristine white sand, sparkling blue waters, must be facing the west for a perfect sunset view… thinking about this makes me want to stay here kahit na am soooo eager to go home ngayon… i know this sounds to ungrateful, but God knows i am very much thankful for His blessings… just asking for forgiveness that i am just human, always wanting something that you don’t have at the moment… ooopss… paibang topic na po ito!!! Hahha… Jenny/Kitchen moment na to! (madalas kasi kami mag-senti ni jenny vanta sa kusina habang nagluluto at naghuhugas ng pinggan…i miss that jen!) Hahha…
cge na nga, inaantok na ko… 5 am na… another day… ano kayang mangyayari today? meron kayang kakaiba (pero good kakaiba ha… ayaw ko na ng kakaibang panget)?
sana po Lord…. sana…
It was a Saturday, April 8, 2006, I was driving on the 405 for Long Beach for the Toyota Grand Prix event… I was with Ninong Anton and we were arguing about my being an avid fan of the number 65… the maximum limit of California highways… hahaha… compared to the other vehicles, I was technically driving slow as the lanes were wide open for a very tempting rush on the gas and hitting 80 or worst 90 miles per hour…
The car pool lane was wide open and I gave into the temptation… together with being lectured for not being able to match the flow of the vehicles I started to travel with… I started to speed up… and was around 73 miles per hour when all of a sudden a "waannnng-waaaannnngg…." sound was echoing in the distance and a flash of lights were going my way…. yep! A cop was on my tail ordering me to pull over, actually pointing with his left hand and looking pissed at me… Yep! I guess we are all on a "OMG (Oh My God)" mode by now… it was like a dream… like a movie that I have seen a number of times… I was ACTUALLY being asked to pull over and was about to talk with A COP… I felt like hitting the gas, going to LAX and riding on the plane to Manila… as tempting that thought was, of course, I couldn’t do that and had to go to the ordeal… He said I was speeding! Can you believe that? After all the time I was going 65, the few minutes I was going 73, I was being charged for it… I was asking him to make this as a warning but I guess it takes a "Rachelle" to ask the cop to let you get away with it…
Oh well… here is a picture of my beloved ticket… Ha! I plan to make this THE ONLY speeding ticket I will ever have in my life… So for everyone who happens to drive and encounters me and Barcie in front of you, better change lanes and speed up because I will now forever be a 65 fan.
I was just browsing thru blogs and i find a quote that hits home…
"The only way to avoid pain is not to love anyone, not to let anyone get too close or too important. The secret to not being hurt like this again, I decided, is never depending on anyone, never needing, never loving."
- Audre Lorde, She of Infinite Wisdom
I decide to make this a theme of my life from now on… no one will ever come close again… only those in my heart will remain… those that opted to go better make sure they meant it coz there is no way back to my heart… no u turn, no alternate route… only dead end.
